They beat me and I called you to save me … but you couldn’t..
so I secretly resented you.
They took our babies and sold them,
I begged you to save us.. but you couldn’t ..
so I secretly blamed you..
They raped me, and I cried out for you to protect me… but you couldn’t…..
So I stopped trusting you…
You were supposed to be my man..
but when I needed you.. you couldn’t be there…
so I hated you…
How could I let you tell me what to do.
When Franc could protect me more than you..
How could I submit to you when you are forced to submit to Franc?
So to protect myself I submitted to the one who could protect me and our children.
I stopped trusting you..
I stopped loving you..
I stopped honoring you..
I stopped valuing you and in turn I became valueless to you.
I didn’t see the frustration in your eyes when our children were sold..
I didn’t hear your silent cries when I was beaten.
I didn’t see your anger when I was being ravished..
I didn’t understand that you held your emotions to be strong for me..
I didn’t even notice that you fell sick for me
you paid with your health
I thought you didn’t care..
but you wanted to be there…
you wanted to protect me..
you wanted to ….
but Franc made it so you couldn’t
so I would trust him more than you.
I didn’t see the hidden hands shaping our destiny..
all I saw was my pain..
and the feeling that you neglected me..
you wouldn’t go out with me..
I felt less of a woman
You wouldn’t hold my hand as we walk along the streets
I felt not cared for…
I needed more PDA
A show off…
I needed them to know that am loved,
But you never gave me the opportunity to demonstrate that
For all the times I blamed you,
For the resentment and distrust I’ve held against you for centuries..
For the times I’ve let you down
For the times you called me for reconciliation and I turned you down..
Because I had to give Franc my time…
I am Sorry
For all the times I’ve broken your spirit with my words and my actions.
I am Sorry
For the times I openly rejected you.. and tried to control you .. because I thought less of you..
Franc had a plan.. that he said would work for 400 years..
400 years is over now..
I am still cupid, worse of.
I pray I would be with you
My eyes are wide open… ..
I see the king in you…
I am now ready to listen to you..
Tell me what you want and I will do it..
Please forgive my wrongs and see your queen in me…
Please let’s get back together..
Please treat me as the little princess you called me..
Though I couldn’t realize what you had in your heart..
Let’s build our dreams once again..
We’re made for each other…
We can do it Babe we can.
IT’S MY APOLOGY