MY APOLOGY

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They beat me and I called you to save me … but you couldn’t..
so I secretly resented you.
They took our babies and sold them,
I begged you to save us.. but you couldn’t ..
so I secretly blamed you..
They raped me, and I cried out for you to protect me… but you couldn’t…..
So I stopped trusting you…
You were supposed to be my man..
my provider..
my protector
but when I needed you.. you couldn’t be there…
so I hated you…
How could I let you tell me what to do.
When Franc could protect me more than you..
How could I submit to you when you are forced to submit to Franc?
So to protect myself I submitted to the one who could protect me and our children.
I stopped trusting you..
I stopped loving you..
I stopped honoring you..
I stopped valuing you and in turn I became valueless to you.

I didn’t see the frustration in your eyes when our children were sold..
I didn’t hear your silent cries when I was beaten.
I didn’t see your anger when I was being ravished..
I didn’t understand that you held your emotions to be strong for me..
I didn’t even notice that you fell sick for me
you paid with your health
I thought you didn’t care..
but you wanted to be there…
you wanted to protect me..
you wanted to ….
but Franc made it so you couldn’t
so I would trust him more than you.
I didn’t see the hidden hands shaping our destiny..
all I saw was my pain..
and the feeling that you neglected me..

you wouldn’t go out with me..
I felt less of a woman
You wouldn’t hold my hand as we walk along the streets
I felt not cared for…
I needed more PDA
A show off…
I needed them to know that am loved,
But you never gave me the opportunity to demonstrate that

For all the times I blamed you,
I’m sorry
For the resentment and distrust I’ve held against you for centuries..
I’m sorry
For the times I’ve let you down
I’m sorry,
For the times you called me for reconciliation and I turned you down..
Because I had to give Franc my time…
I am Sorry
For all the times I’ve broken your spirit with my words and my actions.
I am Sorry
For the times I openly rejected you.. and tried to control you .. because I thought less of you..
I’m sorry..
Franc had a plan.. that he said would work for 400 years..
400 years is over now..
I am still cupid, worse of.
I pray I would be with you

My eyes are wide open… ..
I see the king in you…
I am now ready to listen to you..
Tell me what you want and I will do it..
Please forgive my wrongs and see your queen in me…
Please let’s get back together..
Please treat me as the little princess you called me..
Though I couldn’t realize what you had in your heart..
Let’s build our dreams once again..
We’re made for each other…
We can do it Babe we can.
IT’S MY APOLOGY

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